
Hard Candy is one hell of a sicko movie… Everything is not what it seems. It’s about this little girl trying to punish this paedophile for his raping and killing this 1, ONE, child or adolescent. There was this one scene, where Hailey, the main character, castrates Jeff, the paedophile. She slowly taunts Jeff, making him beg, threat, bargain, negotiate, and plea for her sympathy.
This i think is one of the few movies which actually stimulate my feelings. A feeling which for a long time i have kept silent. Ignited by the fact that, although the paedophile was guilty, no an should ever feel the entire process of castration awake and with local anaesthetic. It is this feeling of helplessness, and the character which enjoys watching people being helpless that makes me fired up.
This fire, is not that type of gung-ho enthusiasm type, but this sense of … Hate… Coming from my gut and moving towards my forehead, feeling my temporal artery beat. Few movies can do so, and as of this moment.
I am feeling hate.
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I hate it when you say you are helpless. In fact you aren’t helpless at all. You just don’t want to help yourself. Pick yourself up and don’t just lay there in the sewage pond. Get up!
I hate it when people are looking out for you and your fucking ass, only to be stepped on and be smothered by your feet all over the ground.
I hate it when you buy excessive food, and you don’t finish it, and push it to other people. I’m not saying that i don’t appreciate you being sweet, but it’s just 1 time too many and i hope you ask me first before you buy something for me. I really really don’t want to waste any of your money already. I owe you too much.
I hate it when you push responsibilities around, involving other people who, and because of your shit, they have to sacrifice their time to mop up the mess u made.
I hate it when you whine, and you don’t take action, and you whine some more, but at the back, you’re just doing your thing, hoping that it somehow happens.
I hate it when I want to talk, you have to butt in, or strike down whatever i want to say. If whatever you want to say is so much more important than mine, then just say so, and i will keep my silence to myself. ( I need to work on this too…)
I hate it when you just drift off to him/her, sacrificing us. I know it can be nice to be 1 on 1, but i hope someday you will know how i feels.
I hate it when I am so gullible to other people, unable to just put a firm NO with a simple “i just don’t want to ” reason.
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Yea, my hate is being reduced every time i open a new “i hate it when…” till the point i have no hate at all, and am feeling quite happy now.
Am so sorry if i hurt anyone, am being as ambiguous as possible already… And it’s just my feelings le and it can happen to me too. And if it does, please be as frank (or un-frank) as me, and tell it to my face.
CB out